For music, Mr. Kim, our music teacher is forcing us outside of our comfort box to perform a song in front of a live audience. I chose the song ‘Strange’ by Celeste. I had always viewed singing as self-humiliation but this taught me that it doesn’t have to be. I got used to being on stage, and as much as I was so happy when it was over, I am happy to do it again.
Attraction has become based on expectations. The root of our physical insecurities emerge from comparison. We don’t feel enough, yet we don’t admit we feel this way. Because that’s uncomfortable.
I’m producing my first song. Finally. It’s around the third song I’ve ever written, yet not my favorite. I wrote this song around two months ago but finally finalized the lyrics over winter break. I plan on performing it during the spring gala, which gives me a deadline to shoot for.
Considering the fact that I was not gifted with great vocal cords, I’m going to ask if someone else would sing it for me. I already have someone in mind, their voice would sound absolutely perfect singing it. It’s a little depressing knowing that I can’t even sing my own song but I’ve learned to become ok with that. I play drums and guitar, so performance wise, I’ll be the background. So, a comfortable distance for me.
Pretty, the song I wrote means more than words to me. It describes perfectly the unachievable physical standards made by society and how that destroys the ego of men and women around the world. I think it tells us what needs to be said about the human experience. Especially when it comes to validating the feeling of not feeling enough.
I plan to release it on Spotify and Apple Music.
